Jesus said, “My sheep hear my voice. I know them and they follow me.”
The children in my boyhood neighborhood
played outside all summer. It was the
era before cell phones, so our resourceful parents devised all manner of ways
to call us home for dinner. The Lux
family blew a whistle. Using different toot
cadences, they could call all their boys at once or any one of the three individually.
The Emerson’s had an old hand-held
school bell and my mother rang it from the front porch so we could hear
it. Not only did we know its sound, but
so did every other kid on the block.
“Keith, I hear your dinner bell.
You had better go home.”
“My sheep hear my voice.” There are times I wish Jesus’ voice was as
easy to discern as my mother’s call to supper.
We listen for his voice to be our moral compass, a source of compassion,
a beacon of guidance, a clarion of discernment, and a purveyor of healing. In a sense, listening for God’s voice has
never been easy. Yes, on some occasions
it is as clear and unmistakable as three loud, long blasts from the Lux’s
whistle. But most often it is much more
elusive.
It isn’t so much that God doesn’t want to
speak to us. It has more to do with our
inability to be attentive. Being
attentive to God’s voice requires time and space for sustained focus. It needs self-emptying. It demands we cease doing and simply be. And so much of our culture degrades our
capacity to do these things.
William James, the 19th Century
philosopher, held we are what we experience and we experience those things to
which we give our attention. Andrew
Sullivan, in an essay on ‘distraction sickness’ in The New York Magazine, points out our attention is everywhere and
nowhere all at the same time. Ads,
smartphones, apps, social media, and the internet produce an endless parade of
distractions to which we are incredibly susceptible.
There is immense competition for our
attention. There is an entire industry
selling its ability to capture it. The
things that ‘pop up’ on your screen don’t just happen by accident. Politicians, who once garnered our support by
articulating positions and policy ideas, now desperately vie for our attention. Outlandish statements and bizarre behavior
have become the new pathway to electability because more and more they are the
only way to get noticed.
“My sheep
hear my voice.” “You are what you pay
attention to.” A 2015 study of young
adults determined the average person uses a smartphone five hours a day,
engaging it a whopping 85 times, most of which last less than 30 seconds. What does this tell you about our ability to
pay attention? Just as revealing, the
study found participants far underestimated how much they used their
phone. It just doesn’t seem like we
spend 1/3 of our waking hours using a device that did not even exist a decade ago,
but we do.
Consider the
uniqueness of what we are doing right now.
For about 12 minutes, each of you is going to sit in one place, not look
at you cell phone, listen to a person speak (who is unaccompanied by pictures,
video, or a scrolling series of headlines and stock market updates
underneath). There are no panelists
shouting down each other. No slickly
produced PowerPoint presentation. It is
just me and my words bathed in the light of our timeless and familiar church
imagery. I dare say there will be
nothing else in your week even close to this.
Paying attention to a sermon has never been easy, but it is especially
challenging in an era when we cultivate multitasking and accept as normal the fragmentation
of our focus.
Every minute
you sit listening to me 500 new profiles are being created on Facebook, 150,000
messages are sent, and 3,000,000 new comments are posted. Every minute you listen to me 400 hours of
video is being uploaded onto YouTube.
The abundance of information available far exceeds our ability to
consume it. And it is not just social
media. I remember a medical professional
once stating she would have to invest 200 hours a week reading the latest
articles published in professional journals covering her field just to stay
current with the latest research.
The time you
have and the attention you can give is a scarce resource. More and more, learning how to manage and
allocate these resources is an essential life skill as well as a spiritual necessity.
Andrew Sullivan’s article on distraction is
titled “I Used to be a Human Being.” He
describes in it the soul-crushing experience of making a living as a political
blogger spending almost all of his waking time on-line responding to the
endless seeping of ‘breaking news.’ This
is what he came to learn:
I spent many hours
communicating with others as a disembodied voice, but my real life and body
were still here. I began to realize, as
my health and happiness deteriorated… [e]very hour I spent online was not spent
in the physical world. Every minute I was
engrossed in a virtual interaction I was not involved in a human encounter. Every second absorbed in some trivia was a
second less for any form of reflection, or calm, or spirituality. Sometimes I walk down the street, and I’m the
only person not plugged in… No one is where they are.
After
coming to this realization, Sullivan decided to make a change; to go in a new
direction for him, but one as old as the dawn of the human spirit. He signed up to be a part of a week-long
silent retreat focusing on the art of meditation. He reports it took a few days for his brain
to ‘settle down’ and his body to be comfortable relaxing. He then began to notice things that had
escaped him for some time… the sound of birds singing, the feeling of the
breeze on his skin, the changes in the quality of light as late afternoon gives
way to early evening. For the first time
in a long time he began to feel as if his body and his mind existed in the same
place at the same time.
Sullivan
said his immediate impulse was to grab his phone, take a picture, and post it
online. Alas, he had been forced to
surrender it at the start of the retreat so all he could do was simply be in
the moment and live with what he was experiencing. This, he came to realize, is exactly what he
needed.
As the week unfolded Sullivan became more aware
of long-held painful memories he had suppressed for years. He wanted an instant antidote, but came to
understand this too is a false way forward created by our modern,
make-it-happen-at-microwave-speed world.
Some things, he learned, require time.
“My
sheep hear my voice.” Sullivan states
something fascinating in his article:
[M]odernity slowly
weakened spirituality, by design and accident, in favor of commerce; it
downplayed silence and mere being in favor of noise and constant action. The reason we live in a culture increasingly
without faith is not because science has somehow disproved the unprovable, but
because the white noise of secularism has removed the very stillness in which
it might endure or be reborn.
Some churches have gone all in with an “if
you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em” approach.
They make their worship services as showy and as glitzy as
possible. Big sound, bold visuals,
bright lights, and blazing personalities.
Their worship has the pace and the energy of the latest Avengers movie. But, as the late Rachel Held Evans wrote, she
was not looking for a ‘cool’ church to compete with the culture, she deeply
desired a place she could encounter ancient religious practices in a meaningful
way. Essentially, she, like Sullivan,
sought a place where distractions are minimized in order to provide a place and
a space to listen for the voice of Jesus.
Last Sunday we read the story of Paul’s
conversion on the road to Damascus. He
heard the voice of Jesus only after being knocked off his horse and blinded by
an intense light. For most of us,
nothing this dramatic will ever happen.
It is not that Jesus does not want to speak to us. He does.
It’s just that his voice is soft and calm and is best heard in stillness
and quiet – the very things our culture (to borrow a popular social media term)
has blocked.
Still, we desperately want to know our
lives matter, and not just because we got 100 reactions to our latest
post. We want to know someone cares
about us for something deeper, more unique, and more enduring than purchases we
might make because we are bombarded with pop-up ads some algorithm has
determined should be enticing to us. We
want to know that life has meaning so grand it cannot be captured in 144
characters. We want a purpose more
significant than proselytizing the unknown masses to our particular position on
the news cycle’s most recent dust-up.
To the best of my recollection I never
missed a dinner as a child. No matter
what was going on, my ear was tuned to hear that bell (or others heard it and
quickly brought it to my attention).
This for me is a wonderful image of a spiritual skill we all seek to
cultivate. None of us wants to lose
focus on what really matters. We want
the ability briefly to gaze down life rabbit holes and then walk on. Jesus said, “My sheep hear my voice and they
follow me.” In life, you are what you
pay attention to. Thank you for paying
attention to me these last few minutes.